I live a life of what I call "Pseudo-Relationships" or in other words, relationships that seem so great, but really..."He's just not that into you!" Relationships that will never go anywhere, never work out. Sometimes because God says no, and sometimes because he says no. Othertimes life just says no. In all of these bad relationships and pseudo-relationships, I've tried to learn, but have been in a hole. That is until recently!
Recently, I have learned a lot from these relationships! As I talk with my students, I am surprised about how much I am able to share about past relationships, dumb mistakes, and pseudo-relationships. It's amazing how my dysfunctional life can connect me to these youth. Where as I feel like a screw up, sometimes I think that they respect me more for it, because at least I'm honest about it.
I like that my kids can ask me questions, and that I can talk to them as a single woman...but one with hopes of a family in my future. It's nice to show them that I rely on God in each situation, and the mistakes I have made (like following a boy around the country) have been because I didn't listen to God, or just honestly ignored Him.
So, although these seem like messed up relationships, I am grateful for what I have been through so that I can relate to the kids. One day things will change, but by golly, I'm pretty happy with where I'm at right now!
And have I mentioned yet today, how much I love these youth?
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